I seem to be recovering from the meltdown…but it seems to be taking quite awhile. I melted down 10 days ago and I’m still now centered.
Not that I’m blaming Daddy in the slightest (cause he’s been really busy at work, the kiddos are driving us both crazy and he’s been fighting off some sort of ickiness) but part of my issue is that I’m not getting any feedback. I threw down a lot of shit and followed it up with a lot of deep thought (and journaling in my designated property journal) which provided the gist of an email to Daddy about his friend and my less than friendly feelings towards her among other things.
I don’t expect him to change his behaviors; that would be silly cause he’s the Owner. But property needs to be maintained….at least I think so- like a yard (cause I hate the car analogy). A yard must be mowed and weeded and pruned and – oh hell, I’ve no idea….I can’t even keep a plant alive. But you get the idea.
I don’t feel if does much good to tell property that it’s good most of the time and do nothing to correct bad behavior or habits. And then get all surprised when something happens. It seems like that’s lie not pruning your trees and then wondering why the dead limbs got tangled in the power lines and knocked out power to your neighborhood. *shrug*
I’m sure he’ll get around to me at some point.